If God be against me, who can be for me?

Sometimes it feels as though I am at the centre of an invisible orb, that prevents the fruits of my wishes from penetrating and ending its existence.

I extend out my feelings, to see if any being of mal intent is creating or enforcing such a curse, but find nothing.

Some years back, the thought came to me that the God of this Earth is actually the Devil of this Earth, wearing the clothes and assuming the countenance of his opposite.

Not that I believe that there is no ultimate Good.

But I do not believe that 'good' as perceived and received on this planet, the good dictated by scripture and maintained with childlike duty by the sleepy acquiescent majority, is good.

I see, with my eyes wide open, that this world has been seduced by a smooth talking psychopathic God, constantly reinventing Evil to aggrandise itself and maintain its presence, our need for it.

But there would be no need for it if we saw through it, seeing God as the ultimate abuser, bringing atrocity with one hand while bringing sanctuary with the other.

Sensing this was, as you can imagine, an enormous revelation to me, that came not with fear but with wonder.  Because I do feel there is a beyond - beyond it.  As soon as you can recognise something so as to describe it, you must always know that in the act of recognition, the Unknown has pushed out further from your reach to be able to contain each new revelation.  This is Creation.  This is what creation IS.  To look at the physical world, percieving it as all that is, though it be intensely magnificent and awe inspiring no less, is witnessing a mere fraction of the possibility and reality of Creation.  Creation is not a solid, finite state.  Creation creates creating.

And we are creators.  Creators capable of channeling infinite creativity.

Do you see now that a God that preoccupies our time with high puritanical dogma, propaganda, rules, duties and laws, might want to prevent us from discovering and truly feeling Creation flowing through us?

For then we would FEEL as powerful as it.  We would throw off God, through simple lack of need, and constant uplifting and enriching distraction.  No longer divided against ourself, ourselves and each other by a God constantly asking YOU what to do with the evil IT creates.  It is a God that only knows one trick, creating evil to make us reach for good.  It is a psychopathic modus operandi.

But this is a powerful mechanism of which I speak.

Just the recognition of which, I now suspect has cast me into the centre of this isolating orb.